Scared!!!

Hello,

I have not been on in quite awhile. So I think I may have finally figured out why I can not get this weight loss journey started: I AM SCARED!!! I have always been a big girl. I have no clue what being healthy and thin will be like?!?! I am also afraid of my personality changing. I don't want to become one of those skinny stuck up people, i want to always remain the big girl at heart, mostly because i have so much heart (not to brag). I just want this weight off of me so badly. I have figured up that the least I need to lose is 122 lbs. and the most is 145 lbs. I would be elated with just 50 lbs or 20 even. I just need to get active. GRRR... now I am just mad at myself for not just doing it already. I want to be active so i can chase my son around when he starts walking and running, which will also be happening soon. He is growing so fast, I need to be able to keep up with him. I want to be healthy so that when my husband and I are ready for another child I will get to experience a healthy pregnancy, hopefully gestational diabetes free. I want to truly live and not get winded just from a flight of stairs or being completely soaked in sweat from helping someone move.

So my new plan will be to go for walk with my son in the stroller right after I have fed him breakfast, I will be aiming for 30 minutes each walk. If I have the car I WILL go to the gym and do a cardio or aerobic class for an hour. I will drink at least 60 ounces of water a day. I will find the time everyday to be active. I will make time to think about my food choices and how they will affect me in the long run of life.

Thank you to my few readers for dealing with me and my rantings,

RustiAnn