Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Pain in the Ass

I am a pain in my own ass!
Weight lost ticker is going in the wrong direction, heartburn has returned with a vengeance and I can't stop eating bad foods and drinking Dr. Pepper. I found out today from my gynecologist that all the crazy irregularities I've been experiencing the past few months are self inflicted. Forgetting to take my pill means my hormones go on a roller coaster ride causing my poly cystic ovarian syndrome to go crazy which causes pain and frustration. Drinking so much caffeine causes my breasts to swell to the point I can barely move and actually missed a day of work because it was so bad. I seriously thought he was going to say I needed to have them removed. I will be switching birth control methods so I won't have to remember to take a pill daily, I will just set an alarm on my phone once a month and there we go! 
He didn't give me much for the P.C.O.S pain issue. I know being on the constant birth control hormones is supposed to help with the pain and now that will be good to go. However, the only other solution is, of course, to lose weight. A friend and I went to check out the YMCA right down the road from my house today. Haven't decided if we want to join just yet. I think we should commit to walking or something for a few months before we put money into something. Neither of us has the money to spare right now for something we aren't going to use. I will be scheduling an appointment with an endocrinologist soon so I can find out what is going on with my thyroid that I found out was off over a year ago on routine blood labs. Hopefully I can take care of that next week. 
I feel as though I am yet again starting from square one after failing myself and my doctors again! I weighed 264 at the doctor office today. I never wanted to see myself over 260 again. I was down in the 230's last summer! I know it sounds crazy but HOW DID I GAIN OVER 30 POUNDS IN LESS THAN A YEAR???? 
Is enough enough yet???