April!

Well hello April! How I've missed you! I love April. So many good things this month. Many of my family members have birthdays this month and mine is on the 30th. 

I went to the doctor at the end of March and had a physical. It was not pretty. As we all know, I am considered morbidly obese for my age and height. My BMI is around 47%. My cholesterol is so high that she has put me on a low carb, low sugar, low fat diet and bonus my thyroid is low so I have to go to an endocrinologist. I will find out the exact numbers for my cholesterol on Monday I hope. I hate hate hate myself for still being so overweight that I am a heart attack waiting to happen and I'm only 25!!!! I mean wtf is wrong with me that I can't get my head out of my ass, my car out of the drive through and the soda out of my hand to get this shit done and be healthy??? It's all I've ever wanted and for some reason I can't get it done. I don't have a choice anymore. To keep myself from having a massive heart attack I have to do what I know is right and good for me. 

any ass kicking advice?? go for it in the comments!

~RustiAnn

Update

Well that was a really long hiatus! Sorry guys been dealing with some family things.

I recently left my husband of almost six years to be on my own. It has been a long 3 months. Lots of ups and downs and craziness. I am happy to report that even with all the craziness of the past few months I have not gained any weight. I will add that I have not lost any either, I'm very happy I have no gained any. 

Now that I've been living on the THIRD floor of my apartment complex for about a month I have noticed that all my clothes are a little big...even the panties. My legs have thinned out and look leaner. My arms are stronger just from carrying things up and down the stairs every day. I've been on my own for a month now. It hasn't been easy and I expect that it won't be for a while however, I'm ready to put exercise back in my routine. I need to get myself on a schedule. Hopefully it will help with the emotions and mood swings too. 

Not exactly a happy update but just wanted ya'll to know I'm still kicking.

~RustiAnn

Enjoying My Job!

Hey everybody! Hope ya'll are good! I am feeling better the past few days. I have been able to make it to work all 3 days and stay the whole shift. I finally figured out my pain meds and have been able to keep the pain under control. The meds combined with a "rice sock" heating pad I am feeling much better. I still can't exercise but I'm doing good on my eating and I am 2 weeks soda free! Will be 3 weeks on Monday the 10th. I am so happy I have decided to quit drinking sodas all together. Dr. Pepper was my poison of choice! I feel so much better. The only thing I don't understand, and yes TMI is coming up, now that I pretty much drink water exclusively except occasional glass of milk, I seem to be dealing with a case constipation that doesn't make any sense to me. I thought with all the water and eating healthy that wouldn't be an issue...if anything I would be more "normal" or "regular". Any advice?

I am really enjoying my job. This is the first full time job I have ever had and this is also the longest I've stayed at a job in a long time. I have no desire to leave this job and I like what I do. I get to train someone that they just hired starting next Tuesday! I am so excited! I can't believe I've only been there a couple months and I am already getting to train someone! Anyway, all is looking well here nothing much to report except that I am loving life right now!

~RustiAnn

Restricted

RESTRICTED!!!

I have been restricted from any form of exercise that could cause my cyst to twist over on itself and stop blood flow to my ovary. I wouldn't be able to do much considering the pain I am in.

I am doing everything I can to stay on track eating wise and hydrating. 

My doctor prescribed birth control for 2 months to shrink the cyst by stopping the ovulation process. That or it will burst, I kind of hope it will burst so the pain will go away. I have never been in such pain. I went to work today and only made it 4 and half hours and that's with 800mg of ibuprofen. Nothing is comfortable, sitting, standing walking even laying down isn't comfortable. I don't know how people who have pain constantly do it! Highest respect for ya'll! Finally get my head on straight with eating and wanting to exercising and now I'm side lined by a cyst! Well, here's hoping it's over soon!

~RustiAnn