Sunday, June 12, 2016

Day 164

Day 164

140 days since my last post. I have to say that I've honestly not done much since Day 24 except survive to the best of my ability. Depression and anxiety have a societal stigma where it isn't much talked about. If I'm being completely honest I never thought I would be one to have a discussion on my public blog regarding these things. My very best friend is one of the only people I personally have seen deal with the affects and effects of depression, anxiety, and other diseases. She is a steel beam in my opinion. 
I've watched her overcome so much in the past few years. Now that I'm dealing with it on a much smaller, in my opinion, scale I can't help but wonder how she did it. How did she get up and go to work everyday? How did she take care of her husband and furbabies everyday? How did she have the strength or where did she find it? Was it pure determination and strength of will power? I'm positive some days were. My best friend has been my rock to lean on in the past few months that I've been having issues. 
In this day 164 I do have some good news. Amid all this turmoil and daily struggle my fiance and I have found the time and found the way to be more active. It's not much however, we made it to the gym last Saturday 06/04 and did a 40 minute lower body and abs workout. This past Friday 06/10 we went to the batting cages. We had 208 pitches total, so 104 each. It was a blast! I think we will definitely be doing that more often. Then yesterday my best friend and I went to the pool here at our apartment complex. We didn't do anything specifically defined as exercise. Just treading the water, a little swimming and walking for about an hour. Between the batting cage and the pool I am so sore. I activated all the muscles. I'm back to work tomorrow after being out for a whole week; unplanned. I'm looking forward to getting back into the swing of things. I believe I made a breakthrough with my issues that are going on right now this past week or at least I hope I did. I can't afford to keep taking time off from my job. Wish me luck. Positive thoughts and prayers always appreciated. #prayfororlando


  1. You can and will get thru this. You sound like you have a strong support system. The batting cages are a good way to work off the pent up anger and frustrations. The pool is a way to work out in a very low impact way, easy on the joint great for the heart! Always remember you have many who care about you, even though you may not know them well.
    <3 Mary

  2. You are one of the strongest people I know. You can handle anything in your path. You are a fighter like your Aunt. Glad you two found time to work out, and the best way...make it fun. And yes, I am praying for all those families that were affected by the shooter in Orlando. I may not agree with the life style choices of everyone, but I do believe that everyone has the right to make their own choices. This terrorists had no right to take the lives of 50 people and injure 53 others. I am sure the law will deal with him and anyone else who attempts these kinds of actions against people just living their lives.