Please send Encouragement!

 I would appreciate some encouragement from my blogger friends! I've been having some motivational issues since the miscarriage in October and I've put on about 15lbs. Not exactly where I wanted to be right now this year. I wanted to be running 5k's and under 200lbs. I'm frustrated and annoyed with myself. help!!

I would also like to add somewhat of a disclaimer:

I DO NOT want to be a bull shit blogger that only claims to "want" to lose weight and never does anything to achieve that notion. I know I've been that person since I started this blog so I am no longer going to be that person. If I'm not truly 100% into eating healthy and exercising, walking the walk, not just talking the talk, I WILL NOT POST. I will not whine or complain. I am an able bodied 25 year old with no medical conditions and no handicaps there is no reason why I can not take control of my life and refuse myself "treats" and sodas so that I can be around for many many many years to come! All the crap fake foods that we, as a nation, eat on a daily basis should probably be outlawed and I intend to outlaw them for myself. No more crappy McDonald's, Taco Bell, Whataburger...etc etc etc the list goes on. I want whole, healthy, natural foods to be my family's first choice. It shouldn't be complicated. 

DENY myself all the shitty foods and eat WHOLE, NATURAL food.

It starts now.

No soda.

It's not good for me anyway!

No eating out.

Natural whole foods and water only!

Walking 20 minutes minimum everyday!

~RustiAnn

Loss

A little over a week ago I emailed Allan to remove myself from the challenge because I found out I was expecting.

Little did I know that two days later that pregnancy would end in miscarriage. My husband and I are both very distraught and working on coming to terms with this very unfortunate and unforeseen event in our lives. We were both very excited to be parents again and now we are just clinging to our faith, each other, and our son. 

My husband has been such a rock for me through this struggle, I can't thank him enough. A few days after the miscarriage happened I came home from work to these beautiful flowers.

My favorite, Star Gazer lilies and a single pink rose.

I was very early in my pregnancy. We did not know the gender of the baby at all. It's amazing how much love you can have for someone that was only a part of you for about 4 weeks. We have decided to name the baby "Skye". 

My dear Skye, I love you and I know you are loved and safe in heaven with Jesus. Love, Mommy.

~RustiAnn

Wordpress

Hello there, it's been 5 months since I've written.

Today I am giving a short update and a link to my new blog home. I am doing pretty good. I am still sitting around 235lbs. I have joined Allan's challenge and I am enjoying the menu much more than I thought I would. It is amazing how 1200 calories really is enough every day!

I went to my yearly gyn appointment in June everything is normal and in the year since I had been there I have lost 49 pounds! My doctor is incredibly happy with me! Here's to continuing on a successful path.

I have moved my blog to Spoonful of Texas Sugar. My new blog is not dedicated to weight loss, it is the "witty and sarcastic ramblings of a Texas Girl!" It will be about everything! I hope you'll click on over and subscribe!

Thank you so much for following me here for so long!

Farewell,

~RustiAnn

p.s. i may do periodic updates on this blog every few months

49 Days!

No weigh in today, I forgot to do it this morning. 

We are down to 49 days until we go on vacation. I am down to 12 days until my 

25th birthday. I don't know how I feel about this birthday yet.

Anyway, went for a 0.77 mile walk tonight, took about 20 minutes and did 2 short jogging portions. Felt good to get outside and it actually got rid of my headache.

~RustiAnn