I am so afraid of what losing weight will do to my entire life that I am(was) sub consciously defeating myself.
I am scared that I will fail. I'm afraid I won't recognize myself when I start losing. I don't want to lose who I am now just because I become un-fat. I have had so many "skinny" people be rude or mean to me and I don't want to turn into that. I want my personality and character to stay intact.
Have any of you worried about your personality changing due to weight loss?
Failure to me is a nasty word. I don't want to fail myself or anyone else.
I am already failing at weight loss by doing nothing. I guess in order to not be failing I have to actually do something. At least if I am working out and eating healthy I will be trying.
I am done being afraid and worried about what weight loss will do or won't do for me.
I want to be healthy and yes, thin. I want to know what the size 8 pair of goal jeans I bought feel like and what it's like to shop anywhere I want. I want to know what being less than 200lbs feels like!
My new-ish plan:
Be active for a minimum of 45 minutes a day
Body weight strength train(until we get a gym membership)
Eat 3 meals, 2 snacks a day(1200 to 1500cals)
Drink 125 ounces of water daily
Document everything, meals, activity and water.
Was anybody else afraid when they started this journey?